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    i havent been on for awhile..

    i don’t mind not checking this for a while.. even though i should. i have decided to go on here more often to get rid of my anger than doing it another way.

    HAHA

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    well well well (:

    hmm so im talking to him :D

    “You’re in such a weird place today that you might just as easily break out laughing as start to snarl. The good news is that you should be in a good mood, on balance, but nobody else knows what to expect. ”

    ….

    ohkay i guess im going to sleep..this “problem” im having is bothering me.i’m crying and i don’t know what to do so i’m just gonna try to sleep, but i hope i’ll feel better tomorow…..what should i do??nevermind me asking.ahh i’m gonna really start tearing :(

    “The past is never really behind you. Old mistakes are always instructive.”

    i can’t believe i feel this way..

    i like him a lot, like no way.i don’t know why? i mean we don’t even hang out together but i guess he’s soo attractive :)haha ohkay well reasons why i like him? well

    1. he has a cute smile
    2. i LOVE his laugh
    3. his hair is sexy
    4. he’s easy to get a long with
    5. he tells AMAZING stories
    6. he’s awesome
    7. he’s funny
    8. he’s “smart” lol
    9. he makes me happy
    10. his voice makes me melt :)
    11. he’s better than any other guys out there
    12. he’s HOT

    and yeah, i could go on but i can’t think of anything else right now!haaha, he’s just sooo ugh i can’t even explain it well but i like him alot, theres one problem…he doesn’t like me like that which is why i’m giving up on him, i guess we’re only ment to be friends so yeah..

    why can’t i stop having feelings..

    so i like this guy named alec, he goes to eastlake. he’s an awesome guy and i just have so much fun talking to him on the phone and stuff but we’ve never hanged out ever which is why i want to soooo badly !its a loooong story of how we met and i kinda don’t feel like explaining.i wish i never had feelings but i dooo which is why its soo fucking hard.i really hate it, i really do.i can’t get him outta my mind and like you know when your not talking to the person you really want to it makes you wonder?..well lol im weird like that.ohkay but i don’t think hes gonna read this soo, haah !he read everything i put on myspace.i put it on there cuz he doesnt have one so i figured “hey he doesnt have one its not like he’ll go on mine anyways” so i did, and he read EVERYTHING.grr. and he doesnt even like me that waaay!gaah im pissed, sad,mad and happy. um yeah we’re txting right now which is why i’m happy :)